So… It’s been almost 2 years since my last post. I’ve been busy since and haven’t had the urge to write anything until now. I’ve kept away, but I always knew that one day I would return to write in this blog again.
The past two years have seen me grow up to be a real adult – like, a lot. Post-school life has been much harder to deal with. In school, all I worried about was getting good grades – and being nice to people wasn’t part of the equation. Work life has been harsh these past years but I appreciate the lessons I have been taught. It isn’t easy to live in the real world, but what can I say? I’m a SURVIVOR.
Life has changed a lot for me. As some of you may know, my most beloved grandmother passed on two Sundays ago. She died very suddenly from a massive bleeding in her head (stroke). I never got to say goodbye, and this is something I regret not doing. I could have spent time with her beforehand but I was waiting till Christmas to do so. Sadly, my grandmother didn’t survive till then. Henceforth, my life will be very different because she is no longer in my life – and I am not sure I welcome the change.
15 years ago, I was deeply affected when my Grandfather passed away too. I was depressed in my pre-teen and most of my teen years because I just couldn’t get over his death. Till this day, I can easily shed tears just thinking about my Grandfather. With my Grandmother gone too, now I have more tears to shed and a bigger void left in my life.
But I’m a survivor and I will keep pushing through all the adversities that are in store for me.
As part of my life lessons, I have been taught to appreciate what I have too. With all the talk of voids, I should also mention the fulfilments I have in my life.
My parents, family members (including extended relations), friends (including colleagues who have become friends) – These were the people I once took for granted because I was so self-centred, but in time, I have grown to treasure them. I am thankful for the guidance, the consolations, the love… I am blessed because all of you have blessed me with these. I should also mention my fantastic job and my very understanding boss. God has been kind to me.
I’ve had the privilege of travelling to many parts of the world and breathing in the cultures, history and cuisine of many a country. Getting to know other parts of the world really opens up my eyes. And this is something I will continue to do – travel.
It’s almost 2012, so let us bid farewell to 2011. I look forward to a new beginning and a new agenda. Time may heal all wounds, but my beloved grandparents will always remain in my heart… forever.
May blessings be upon all of you in the new year. Let us soldier on.
